Love this lady so much. Another great Mamma Anthology from a good soul and one of my closest friends. (See her first post here.)
Thank you, my sweet friend, for your good, good insight. Much love.
Photos & Text from Ashlee
My husband and I just had our second baby on May 19, 2014. It happened so much faster than we thought it would since conceiving wasn't easy the first go around. We were so excited and felt beyond blessed. I loved and wanted the baby growing inside me more than anything. BUT…at the same time, I had some concerns in regards to Kinlee and the change from a family of 3 to 4.
1) HOW in the world could I possibly love this new baby as much as I love Kinlee? Is it even possible? I just couldn’t fathom it because she was my whole world and I loved her more than anything. Everyone kept telling me I would and that your heart can handle so much love. The moment he was placed into my arms I knew right then and there they were all right. My heart felt fuller. He was so beautiful and the newest blessing in my life. When Kinlee came to visit us for the first time I was overwhelmed with love…love for both my children. I had my two loves on my lap and even through the pain of the c-section, I felt more happiness than I could ever explain.
2) Kinlee was still a baby. Not even two yet and here I was making her grow up! (At least that is what I thought). How is she going to handle this change? Would she be upset with me?
I felt like we prepped her for 9 months on the idea of a baby in the house. We got her babies and showed her how to love on them and take care of them. She walked around feeding her baby and it was so sweet. Even though she carried the baby by the head, it was okay right??? With her age she didn't understand the concept of us bringing a baby home to stay or that there was really anything growing inside me. The first day home was better than I had anticipated. She loved on her baby brother and was in awe of him. She wasn't upset about me holding him. She just wanted me to hold her too for that comfort of being in the bigger picture. Fact: I now had two kids in my life that were my everything. I thought I was taking something away from her by adding a new baby to our family while she was still so little and now I realize I gave her something special…a sibling to love and share things with. Someone to grow up with. Heck, now she runs through the door looking for Tucker!
Having two small children is a lot of work and patience, but the biggest blessing of my life. Couldn’t imagine it any different. Important thing is that they BOTH know how much their mommy loves them and is here for them!
So…3-4 turned out pretty good and is my new normal!
Sites I Dig
The Road is Home
The Seed & Plate
Sharon Covert Photography
The Define School
The Noisy Plume
Sarah Gee Photography
Fox & Owl Studio
The Stork and The Beanstalk
Mellow Yellow Photography
A Simple Little Journal
What I've Been Reading
The Girls by Emma Cline
A Land More Kind Than Home by Wiley Cash
Dark Places by Gillian Flynn
Never Broken by Jewel
Hold Still by Sally Mann