I came across some beautiful and honest words yesterday and man, does it blow my mind how the Universe works. Because the Monster of Expectations - something I had been wrestling, kicking, struggling, and fighting with all week - wasn't giving up easily. Until I read this from the Brave Girls' Club:
I know I was meant to read this. Thank you, Universe. Thank you for the wise words of others and bringing them to me.
Expecting things from others.
Yikes, is that one ever a deep, miry swamp of a mess.
Sometimes I really have a hard time letting things be. Letting people be. Letting situations be. Is it because I am an oldest child? Is it because I have some control issues? Yep, all of those and more.
But, I'm working on them. Hard. Working to have expectations of only myself. Sometimes I do really well.
And sometimes I kick myself in the teeth. Repetitively. Some days I wrestle with the Monster of Expectations for just a few minutes. Sometimes I wrestle with him for long stretches at a time.
But, I'm okay with this journey. I know it's a process. I'll get there a little bit at a time.
It's hard to love people. Spouses, significant others, family members, roommates, co-workers. It is. With our imperfections and their imperfections...goodness, what a mess it can be.
And I think that sometimes expectations and love can become confused.
But I think Jessica Doehle stated it beautifully when she said, " ...when I think of love, I don’t think of disappointment. I think about my mother’s soft hand on my back. I think about bear hugs and Christmas presents and skydiving. I think about dinners on the porch, playing by the fire, and feeling the summer wind kiss my knees at sunset. I think about story time and passport stamps and fresh chocolate chip cookies. When I think about love, I feel free.
Love over expectation, love over disappointment, love over loneliness."
Yes. I choose that.
Happy Saturday, my friends.
An abundance of love and blessings your way -
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